I wonder how it is that you lose all hope. There are times when it seems like I'm close, and I know I'm a drama queen and depend too much on others to pull me out, but to lose all hope...I shoulda coulda woulda, but I haven't.
At my weakest I get reminded that the Joy of the Lord is my strength (Nehemiah 8:10) and then I read Habakkuk (bless you, take care of yourself, you could be getting a virus) 3:17.
Some links to those: http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Nehemiah+8:10,
And then I look around and see people pursuing their passions, and I know that I amn't and then I wonder, what IS my passion. I know it's people, but how, where, whom?
Passion is connected to destiny, so I start thinking that if I don't even have a passion, what is my destiny? Gotta have one to have the other, and then I get into the whole chicken/egg thing.
Bottom line, I know I'm only here to be in relationship with God, and to point my finger at him (first, not third) and glorify Him. So then I start to wonder why in the world the order it all happens is important.
Anyway, it snowed today in Atlanta and my dog, Jasper, when presented with the opportunity to walk out into it all to take a leak and whatever else he needed to do, did an immediate U-turn as if to say "Hell to the NO!" a-la-Madea. After a meal, his mood changed and he tiptoed to the top of the hill to do his bidness. I love him so much.
Anyway, here's what my front yard looks like. 5 years here and this is the first time there's been that much snow.
btw, I'm still underemployed, uninsured, and poorer by the day.....YET (See Habakkuk).
If you have a job you'd like to offer me, you can do it here.
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